Sunday, October 28, 2012

Letting Go

I didn't even want to go.  It's not that I don't having a good time or hanging out with my friends, but lately I barely have time to myself.

Sometimes when you get so caught in the repetition of life, do this, do that, make ends meet, work toward the future...Life.  Not that I am complaining.  I really like my life.  I am in such a great place right now.  I love my wife, I am excited about school and enjoy the work that I do---I only wish I had more time to do it.

Time is the most valuable commodity on Earth.  Fuck money and precious metals and all that shit.  It's time that keeps this world spinning.  It's not the almighty dollar.  Working day in and day out in low-wage slave labor.  That's not the point of life.  I am not a pawn in someone else's scheme to make money.

So last night I just... Let go.

We were the first ones to the bars -- The Incredible Hulk, a football player from Chelsea, T-Rex, Buzz Lightyear, Wayne, and me, Garth.  Woody and Jessie came later.

Wayne just passed the bar, so he and I started with a Jameson shot.  Every place we went we had a shot, in addition to the shots with the rest of the group, and beer---God bless it!

As the night progressed, more and more people came out.  We hopped bars, met Kermit the Frog, who is mentally deranged, and Scooby Doo, who publicly raped Kermit, and a flasher, who kept trying to expose himself to T-Rex.

Drinks, drinks, drinks, cigarettes, new bar, more drinks, drinks, drinks...

A blur of motion and bodies pressed together, the loud thumping of bass, lasers and the flash flash flash flash flash of a strobe light.  I found myself dancing with Buzz Lightyear.

That's when it happened.  When it all disappeared, when nothing mattered but the moment.  I found myself floating along the current.

The current carried us through the night.

Our van cab never arrived and instead of being dragged under and forced by gravity to the depths, we ended up taking a limo for the same price that the cab would have cost.

I arrived on the other side of the shore, at home, where the current carried us, and the transition to solid ground was more than my system could bear.  All of the stress came purging out.


I woke up this afternoon, enlightened.  Whatever stresses were gone, were profoundly gone, and I could see the path ahead of me with clarity.  Everything happens for a reason.  I have been reset; I can see what's important: my wife, my friends, my school, my stories...

Whatever else I have to do to make ends meet on top of my loans, well...You'll get what you pay for and nothing more.

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