Showing posts with label Tales from the Fringes. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Tales from the Fringes. Show all posts

Saturday, January 9, 2016

Tales from the Fringes (Remastered): Coming Soon to an Online Book Retailer Near You

If you have been following this for long enough, at least a few months at any rate, you will know that in addition to my next novel and a few other ongoing projects, I have been working on a new (and final) edition of my first book, my short story collection, Tales from the Fringes, which I originally published in May 2013 while I was a grad student at the University of Akron. The book originally came about as an experiment in self-publishing.

Since then, through three editions of my first novel, Escapes/Out in the Garage, I learned a lot about publishing. I also finished grad school and gained some experience teaching college-level English, and now I have a steady, full-time job, and a little more free time.

Originally, I only intended to mainly focus on the formatting, and also fix a few typos and grammatical mistakes, but as I began working on it, I realized that I had also come a long ways as a writer and an editor, and these stories were good enough for me to put a little more time and energy into getting right.

Now I am to the final editing and proofreading stage, and I am waiting for the proof to come in the mail, which should hopefully arrive on Monday.

In case you were wondering, here is the new cover and description:


Description
In Tales from the Fringes (Remastered), readers get glimpses of people’s lives from where nothing comes easy and happy endings are relative.
In “Greasy,” the Eggman, when he is not working at McDonalds, he is partying, sleeping around, and playing in a band, to no end. In “The Backwoods Incident,” four teenagers run afoul of Master Bael, a demon dog at the head of a cult of dagger-wielding humanoid opossums. At least that’s what the narrator, “The Marlboro Man,” thinks happens. In “The Banamen Prophecy,” a senile fashion designer, Howard Von O’Steinsonmanskinelli, brings about the end of the world by fulfilling an ancient Mayan prophecy.
This collection of twelve stories started as a fiction blog, the domain of which is the author’s homepage (www.gabegott.com). In this “Remastered” edition, each story has undergone some careful fine-tuning, producing what is sure to be the defining version of this set.
As you might be able to tell even from that little blurb, there are differences. However, the things that I liked and that other people seemed to like about the first one are in tact, and I really only changed the things that needed changing. A few of the key differences between the original and the "Remastered" versions include:
  • Fewer stories: a few of the stories were redundant and/or not as good
  • More professional formatting: this is the stuff I originally set out to change
  • A slightly different order: I wanted there to be a certain flow through the stories
  • Better writing: the more that I read, the more that I write, the more that I work towards it, the better my writing gets, and hopefully that is evident here
Once I get the manuscript to a point where I am satisfied and can read through it without changing anything, I will format the eBook version. Finally, once I am satisfied everything is to my liking, I will release it.

I don't have an exact date in mind yet, but when I do, you will be the first to know.

Saturday, August 8, 2015

The Old Man

He wakes up at 3 a.m. after having fallen asleep in his easy chair in front of the evening news. He was so soundly asleep that she didn't want to wake him. Last he remembers, he was sitting there, watching the talking heads spin. Now the TV is off and the room is dark--the world outside is quiet. He stands up, stretches, and makes his way to his study, to his humidor.

Outside, on the front steps, he watches the sun rise and wake the whole world, one thing at a time. He smiles, remembering all the times he sat out on steps in the middle of the night, smoking cigarettes, passages of Melville or Joyce swirling around his brain. He has spent most of his life since grad school trying to rest off all that sleep that he missed during it.

He makes a pot of coffee and lingers on the front porch all morning, working towards catching up on all the reading he has been trying to catch up on his entire life. The end is always far enough out of his reach that it remains invisible, and he realizes that maybe it's time to stop making the list, and just ride it out and see what happens... He realizes that'll never happen.

Someday, someone will come to find him, and he will look like a Tibetan monk in a deep, 1,000-year trance, with a half-finished book in his hands.

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

A Chicago Story: Writing While Riding

Having to spend twelve-plus hours this weekend riding in a car to and from Chicago, I figured it was an opportune time to work on novel number two. While I did not work on it as much as I could have, I did roughly double the length of my manuscript, and I finally was able to get through that scene that was giving me trouble and preventing me from moving forward. Sometimes, you just have to take the time that you have been given and get the idea out no matter how it turns out, because you can always go back and make it better later. After all, that's why it's called the rough draft.

Since the novel is set in Chicago, and has some relation to my personal experiences (although it is not directly based on them), spending some time in the Windy City and retracing my steps around my old neighborhood gave me just the inspiration I needed. While I haven't forgotten my experiences, it was a good idea to refresh my memory and keep the pictures that I have in my minds eye sharp and clearly focused.

However, it not only helps for describing the scenery and the people, but also for reminding myself that I have done it before and can do it again: I wrote my first novel while riding the El to and from work. Going back and riding the trains and seeing the sights, and feeling echoes from the experience of going on an adventure with the woman who became my wife, helped me to get back into the right frame of mind. 

It is kind of funny that I wrote my Ohio book in Chicago, and that I am writing my Chicago book (mostly) in Ohio. I have a feeling that this won't be the only time that I will need inspiration to continue writing before I am done with this book. I would like to make it out again sometime this summer--maybe next time the trip won't be so last minute and I will actually have time to visit some old friends.

Because my TV and internet are out at home (a fun surprise when we got home last night), and AT&T is sending a new router overnight, I suppose I will probably spend my night adding what I wrote over the weekend to the manuscript file. I do this regularly so if a tragedy happens and I somehow lose the notebook I won't lose everything. 

As always, it won't be an exact transcription. I often add and change things--make improvements--as I am typing it out. In that way, I suppose, I am technically, to some degree, editing as I am writing, which is why I like writing my first drafts by hand and then going back and typing them. I often do this with my short and short short stories, as well.

That's why I am a strong proponent of doing what works for you and not following some formula, which is what I teach my students. I, of course, suggest different ways of doing things, but I leave it up to them to figure out what works. Different strategies work for different people, and no one way is truly correct.

Sunday, March 22, 2015

Take It In

My wife has already been up for two hours when I get up up at 9:47 and walk down the stairs. She is watching HGTV, which has become our latest addiction, as we dream of one day buying a house and remodeling it. The dream is still on the horizon, and we keep chasing it down, hour by hour, day by day, year by year, until, one day...

But for now we settle for the dream, still deep within the romance of the  idea, as realistic as we are trying to be about it.

She goes off and does her thing; I get my coffee, and then get an urge and change the station. It's time. Reporters and politicians are screaming across tables at one another in elegant voices, lost in linguistic sword fighting. These are the people who perpetuate the status quo through their inability to come to any terms--but the people aren't that divided. We are just meek, or so we think.

She is kissing me on the cheek as I am lost, trapped in a cave, staring at the shadows. Then she is pulling out the driveway, and I realize a few minutes later that I am by myself. 

Then it is over, and I get this urgent need to be productive so I clean. The dishes. The counters. The floors. The cat boxes... Before long the windows are letting in the insecure sunlight, and everything is glowing as the scene of my neighborhood fills my windows as I sit at my desk in my office, and I wonder how many around me have also won their Sundays. In this neighborhood, probably more than a few.

I realize that I don't stop enough and appreciate  my accomplishments, I am too caught up in the chase for more. I was swept away in the whirlwind and I have gotten too busy to notice that I am all of the sudden in technicolor. I need to catch my breath and slow the beating of my heart and stop the rush. I become awash in the softness of the daylight, and just take it all in... I let my breath out and become awaken to a  new state of mind... Seizing the day, I pull out my guitar.

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

Making Progress on Your Novel is Hard, But You Have to Keep At It

My second novel, which shall for now remain nameless, is coming along, somewhat. Definitely slower than I had hoped. Definitely not doing the three-hundred words a day; although, I am making progress. It's hard to find the time. When I do, I try to make the most of it, though.

I don't think it is going to turn out as long as I had originally thought. I don't really think stretching it is the right approach, so it will just have to come out naturally and be what it is. That's how these things kind of take on lives of their own.

Of course, I am writing from an outline, but I am leaving a lot of room for the moment. For me, the outline is only the skeleton, and I have to flesh it out and make it a living and breathing organism. That can only come from a little bit of inspiration and a lot a bit of putting my fingers to the keyboard or my pen to the notebook and making progress.

When I think back about how I wrote the first one, I remember taking every free moment to work on it. At the time, I was living in Chicago and was constantly, every day, riding public transportation, mostly the Redline El traveling between Wrigleyville and downtown Chicago or vice versa.

For work, I got off at the State and Lake Station, which is right down the street from the Chicago Theatre; for home, I got off at Addison, which was literally Wrigley Field. With headphones buzzing, I spent equal amounts of time gawking out the window, people watching, and writing. The first draft took about six to eight months to finish in this fashion, after having spent like five years writing around thirty pages.

Then I spent a lot of time editing and rewriting it, and I would also do that while riding the trains. I paid to get it printed, so I had these giant, three-hundred-page stacks of 8.5 x 11 white paper with this world I created printed on it. I would read it and mark it up, writing in the margins; then I would go home at night and incorporate all of the changes to the file. I went through this process several times.

The second time isn't as romantic; although, I have matured quite a bit, and learned a lot, and hopefully it shows in the quality of my writing and my ideas.

Hopefully, one day, it will all pay off. Then again, maybe, in some ways, it already has... Sometimes, money isn't everything. I don't know if I can describe in concrete terms what writing does do for me, but it has to be as close of a thing to an orgasm or a religious experience as anything I have ever experienced.

Sunday, March 1, 2015

A Story for a Story: NEW FLASH FICTION!

Very excited about a short short story that I wrote about Sasquatches, so I am going to share this different, previously unpublished one. The two stories are vastly different from one another, but the Sasquatch one you'll have to wait a few months to read, so enjoy this one instead:



What is Real

The daylight unfolds around them huddling together, burrowing deeper into the sleeping bag, bundled in blankets—a giant cocoon in the middle of the campsite. Sleep still clings to their brains.

The fire burned down to coals long before, and those that remain glow with afterlife, sending off faint waves that warm their spirits more than anything. The cold pierces through like needles, sending shivers through their bodies, and they absorb into each other to fight them off.

Laying there, in a daze, sharing the same breath, the world pulsates to life around them as flashes of twilight patter against their brains. There is just enough of a clearing overhead, that when they look up, it is into a wishing well, and, for just an instant, they can see the future…


Birds chirping, the sun’s rays gaining potency, they linger as long as possible, shutting out pangs of real life, getting in touch with what is real.



Friday, February 13, 2015

Update on Third Edition of First Novel

As I previously announced, I am working on a third edition of Out in the Garage, which isn't significantly different, but it is an improvement on the previous editions for a number of reasons. See my previous post, Indie and Proud!, for more details on the changes.

As it stands now, I am nearly finished with this final edition; however, I am considering making a couple of additional changes, which came to light while I was working on the ones previously outlined. I am considering changing the title back to the original, pre-published title, Escapes, as it hits on one of the main themes, and might help to open up the novel to more people.

While considering changing the title, I rewrote the description, and the new description really helps to elucidate the idea that I think was previously obscured, and it, coupled with the title, might also help to explain some of the more confusing aspects of the novel. That is not to say that I give anything away, but when a reader gets to those points, it will make a lot more sense.

Out in the Garage, while a good, and definitely a unique, title, might be a little misleading, since it only seems to focus on one aspect of the novel, and doesn't really seem to encompass all of it, which Escapes does a better job of doing.

Also, I have a new book cover design that I really like, and that adds to the artistry of the whole endeavor. I also think it is better than the original design, and it incorporates the change in title and the new description, as well.

What do you think about the new title/description/cover design?

Here are the (front and back) covers:










And here is the new description:

In many ways, Lance Adamson’s whole life has been defined by escapes: his dad escaping the responsibilities of parenthood through the bottom of a bottle, Lance and his mom escaping that drunken sperm donor and moving in with Grandpa Harry, and Lance, himself, escaping the bullying at school through playing drums. When Lance is sitting at his drum set, which he learned to play by way of jazz-loving Grandpa Harry’s careful instruction, the only thing that matters is the music—everything from the world outside the garage ceases to exist for a while. Seemingly, no matter what is happening in his life, he can be free from it—as long as the euphoria lasts. However, as Lance finds out, there are some things that you cannot escape from forever, no matter how hard you try. In fact, most things catch back up with you sooner or later, and, when they do, it can really turn your life upside down. Fortunately, someone as resourceful as Lance can always find a new way to escape.

If you need something to compare them to, check out the BOOKS Page for the originals.

I am really learning towards the changes, but I haven't fully made up my mind yet. When I do, I will announce it.

300 Words A Day

When it comes to finishing the draft of a novel, the task can seem daunting. The fact that I have previously written a novel fills me with more confidence than I had the first time around, especially since I have taken lengths to correct the mistakes that I made that first time.

In that regard, I have taken a lot of time to consider what I want to say and brainstorm it out in advance. I even have an informal outline, which will give me a basis to work from and a way to keep myself on track. These are all important things, but it doesn't mean much if you don't then work towards the goal at hand, which, for me, is to write a first draft this year.

Since I work three jobs and am looking for a full-time position, and have a life besides, it is difficult to find the time to actually sit down and get busy. Even when I do, it doesn't ever seem like enough. Since I started writing this one, I have written 2,837 words, and have had a difficult time motivating myself when I do have the time, since it seems like I am barely making any progress. 

Then, last night, it hit me--one of those late night revelations. If I write at least 300 words a day, that amounts to 2,100 words a week, and if I keep it up through the rest of the year, then that adds up to 96,600 words, for a total of 99,437 words, which leaves me just 563 words short of my 100,000-word goal (for the first draft).

So, as you can see, it is all a matter of perspective. If you change your perspective enough, you can change your approach and accomplish the task that you set out to do. 100,000 words undoubtedly is a daunting goal, but 300 words a day seems very doable.

It will take discipline, but if I push myself, I can accomplish the task. After all, I did write a novel once before, and with no experience, and far less planning or knowledge about the process. Now that I have studied writing, and have some experience and a solid working plan, I feel a lot better about the whole endeavor. Now, I just have to do it.

NOTE: This blog post is 386 words (minus this note), and it took me about 20 minutes to write. When you consider that, it makes 300 words a day on my novel seem even more doable.

Friday, August 22, 2014

Learning and Moving Forward

For my second novel, I am in the process of dissecting two of my favorite novels by two of my favorite authors, books I have read multiple times each, so I can full understand how they work, more so, than perhaps, I do already--I have actually written a paper on one for a linguistics class. Actually, I have written two papers on works by that author, so I am already well familiar with how his style works, more or less. My goal is to immerse myself in these novels so I can draw as much influence from them as I am able. I already have my novel all plotted out, but studying these works will allow me to hone what I have planned already and, when I am actually writing it, use what I have learned and absorbed to write the best novel that I am capable of writing, currently.

One thing that really click for me over the last few months has to do with editing, which I will be able to use, not only when I am editing this novel, but also when I am writing it. I have figured out my process and I feel confident in it, and know that I can produce top quality work, which, even though I believe I could get it published, I am going to self-publish, since one of my goals is to change the way people perceive self-published novels--that they don't all have to be genre fiction in order to draw an audience, and that they can be well-written and intellectually challenging.

My goal as a writer is to produce works of artistic and literary merit, that go beyond mere entertainment and escapism, to push boundaries, to challenge people to think differently and go outside of their worldview and see life from a different perspective.

It feels good to be figuring things out, making decisions, and doing what I have to do to move forward in my life, professionally and personally, and as a writer. Even though I am only a hobbyist, I do take what I write seriously, and I try to push myself constantly to be better than I am, and that will likely never change.

Sunday, June 8, 2014

Out in the Garage First & Second Editions...And More!

At some point over the last few days it occurred to me that I might as well keep the first edition of Out in the Garage for sale.  While I could easily just keep it to myself and make sure that it never sees the light of day again, I am opting to keep it on sale along side the second edition.  The first edition is $5.99 in print at Create Space and 99 cents at Smashwords.  The second edition will be available July 4, 2014 and will be $6.99 for the print version and $1.99 for the eBook version, which, all around, I think are decent prices.

I have all these different versions of the same damn book anyways, so I might as well try to make it an asset rather than a fault (If you want to change other peoples perspectives, you first need to change your own perspective).  I don't plan on doing it with every book that I write, just this one, since I have already essentially done it, anyways.

I believe the cult fiction/underground fiction/fringe fiction audience that I am marketing towards will be fine with me having more than one edition of the same book--as the editions are quite different from one another.  Since I don't write genre fiction and I need to market to a specific audience, in order to build an audience, I feel that this is the best route for me to go.  People who tend to like fiction, music, movies, etc. that are not mainstream tend to be more open-minded and open to experimentation, and also tend to want to engage in media that makes them think in a deeper way.  I believe my works meet these criteria (especially since I tend to like things that aren't popular anyways--I know, I am a dirty hipster,whatever).

My main focus, of course, will be the second edition, but if someone would be so inclined as to read both versions for comparison sake, it will be possible.  In fact, in keeping with the spirit of having more than one version of the same novel, there is a third version with the title Escapes that is actually based more closely on the original version of the novel (the version that I wrote and gave to friends to read before I went back to school and went crazy with the changes-making), so I might eventually put that out as well, as I don't really have to do anything to it but proofread it.

When it comes down to it, it is all the same story, it is just three different ways of reading it.

It might be interesting to see how they each compare with one another.  It might make a good essay, anyways, to sit down and analyze what I have done.  In fact, an essay might be an appropriate way to cap off this whole project.  That way it can be more appropriately labeled "experiment" and the literati won't make me disappear--I mean, it hasn't happened yet, so it's *probably* not going to happen.  I guess they are a pretty passive bunch, anyways.

This is a hobby for me--albeit one that I enjoy, am really passion about, and would love to do for a living--but I am realistic enough to know that I am probably not going to do it for a living.  That is no reason to give up, to not keep trying new things, or to not keep trying to improve, that just means I have to find another career, which is fine with me, to be honest (I am doing that right now anyways).  The best material comes from going out into the world and interacting with people, and I always find the time to work on this stuff, no matter how busy I am with something else.

In the next few weeks I am going to finish proofreading the manuscript of the second edition, upload it to Create Space, get a proof made and proofread it again, and then release it for sale.  Then I will start promoting it, order a bunch of copies to give away, and hopefully, get some good reviews, which should help me begin to build an audience.

Anyways, I have a lot to think about and a lot to do, so I should probably get started.  It's time to get organized!

Monday, June 2, 2014

Accidental Numerology

Here are some things that I just noticed about the second edition of Out in the Garage, none of which is intentional:

There are Nine Chapters, and 1-3 go from pages 4-49, 4-6 go from pages 50-102, and 7-9 go from pages 103-164 (i.e. each three chapter chunk is roughly equivalent in length)
The exact halfway point, pages 84-85, is just over the halfway point of the chapter (pages 80-81), Chapter 5, which is also the central chapter
Chapter 5 is the chapter where the protagonist, Lance, begins to come back to consciousness
The first half and second half are nearly the same number of words (the first half, pages 4-84, is just under 23,000 words, and the second half, pages 85-164, is just over)
The scene which is roughly at the center of the book is one of the most important scenes in the book

As someone who has read quite a few medieval texts, numerology has always fascinated me, but this is completely accidental.  This text, as most people who read this blog regularly know, has taken me about ten years to complete, and has undergone numerous configurations.  Recently, I have finally settled on a non-linear structure, which has brought out the themes and ideas that I have been trying to express all along, particularly the existential aspects, which were originally somewhat buried.  It has really helped me find my focus and get it to a point where I am truly happy with it.

I have no explanation for these patterns, though, and I will be the first to admit that I am a skeptic…  I would like to say that it is coincidence, that it means nothing, but I can’t come to terms with that explanation.  I generally consider myself agnostic, with leanings towards Buddhism, and this weird number system doesn't make me want to reconsider my beliefs or to go back to Christianity, which I was raised to believe, or anything like that—if anything, it makes me want to learn more about Buddhism, since it is my (very basic) understanding of Buddhism, as well as physics (to be honest) that leads me to believe that everything in the universe is connected, and that we are all part of the same life force, and these are ideas that strongly inform the text.

Just doing some quick searching on Buddhist/general numerology has brought up some interesting results about how religions, Buddhism, in particular, symbolically interpret different numbers (i.e. it’s not just Christianity).  This is something I will have to read more about.  I am not convinced that it means anything concerning my novel, but, if anything, it does make my novel more interesting (to me, at least).  I have no plans of changing it, further developing it, or highlighting it any more than I have here, but I will definitely be "meditating" on it, so to speak.

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Self-Administered Pep Talks Do Work

Here is the my "production" schedule for Out in the Garage between now and July 4:

This Week:
  1. Do some light editing/proofreading of the manuscript and make sure I am happy with it
  2. Update downloadable sample to reflect any changes
  3. Finish uploading files to Create Space and order a proof
ASAP:
  1. Proofread it for typos when I get it
  2. Update the manuscript with any (minimal) changes that I have to make
  3. Upload the updated manuscript (If there aren't many typos, there will be no need for another proof; if there are a lot of typos, I will order another proof and go through it again, just to be safe, and go through the final proofreading process again.)
  4. Format the eBook version
  5. Upload eBook version to Smashwords, Kindle Direct Publishing, etc.
  6. Release for Sale, July 4, 2014
In other news, in my Digital Humanities class, I am doing my paper on digital publishing.  I need to do some research and hone the topic down into something that I can write about in 16-20 pages, but, obviously, it is something that really piques my interest, and hopefully I can apply what I learn to this "project" (i.e. this obsession, compulsion, delusion, hobby, dream).

Anyways, I thought some of you might be curious/interested to see my game plan to get this novel finished and out to the public, finally.  Well, finally, again.  But this is finally, finally (finally!).  No matter what happens, I am going to move on, and apply what I learn to the next project.  I will say that this version is, in my opinion, anyway, by far the best I have ever done, and I feel like I can be happy with all of my choices, no matter what.  I know I keep saying it, but I can't emphasize it enough.  This is it.

Sunday, May 18, 2014

NEW COVER:

To more fully differentiate between the versions of Out in the Garage, I have designed (with the help of my wife) a new cover:


I am very excited about everything that is happening and the direction I am headed, and this will be the last time I work on it before I publish it and move on to other project(s).  I know that I have put my all into this project and, while taking advice but also trusting my instinct, I can't be happier with how it has turned out.  Like I have been saying all along, I have been experimenting with a lot of ideas to try to figure out this whole publishing business.  I finally feel like I am getting a good grasp on it.

Monday, April 28, 2014

Bring Chaos to Order

As a writer and a student of English Literature, I have a diverse range of influences, which can be exemplified in the two final papers I am writing this semester: one on John Updike's "Pigeon Feathers" and "Packed Dirt, Churchgoing, A Dying Cat, A Traded Car" from Updike's collection, also called Pigeon Feathers; and the other on Kurt Vonnegut's Breakfast of Champions.  While stylistically the authors are very different, the more I look at these texts I am studying, the more I realize that, while they are stylistically very different, in some ways they are similar.

Both Updike stories are about the character David Kern, in his teenage years and as an adult, one from a third person perspective, the other from a first person--although the third person is closely focused on Kern's perspective and thoughts, so in many ways it matches closely with the first person, later in his life.  It actually makes a lot of sense that Updike would make this change from Kern's teenage story to his adult story, since adults are much more cognizant than teenagers.  Probably more significantly, Kern becomes a writer, and the latter story represents his writerly musings--he is taking ownership over his thoughts.

Like all of Updike's work (at least of it that I have read), in both stories a significant part of understanding what is happening in the story involves seeing the character's inner-lives realized in the descriptions--as a certain professor of mine would say, Kern is "reading the world like a book."  He is looking for signs of God in the material world, seeking faith in a way that makes sense to him.  However, in "Packed Dirt, Churchgoing, A Dying Cat, A Traded Car", Kern is not merely reading the world like a book, he is forcing the audience to do the same--he is creating elaborate metaphors to signify the ideas he is attempting to get across to his audience.  While, clearly, Updike is doing this in both stories, as the author of the stories, his changing from the third person to the first person illustrates how he as a writer does this.  In effect, he is illustrating how he as a realist sees the world and then uses it as a part of his writing to as a way of creating meaning.  While there might not be that sort of meaning, in the real world, in the things that he describes, it is interesting to see how as a writer he does this.  It is definitely something that I am keeping in mind.

Conversely, rather than mimicking the real world in an attempt to convey his ideas, Vonnegut creates his own universe of characters, which are not intended to be realistic, and, as is the case of Breakfast of Champions, they are, by the admission of the author, characters in a book.  Vonnegut is drawing attention to the writing process and showing how we understand the "real" through language, and thus, anytime we use language we are giving our own subjective viewpoint, no matter how objective we are attempting to be, we can't help but be subjective, since language is our only way of making sense of everything.  

To Vonnegut, and other post-modern/metafiction writers, there is no such thing as realism.  No writer is actually being any more realistic than any other, since it is impossible to be anything other than subjective.  The styles might be different, one might focus on the setting and the scenery and describing what how he perceives through his senses the world around him, it is still his subjective point of view, and thus no more "real" than any other writer.  True, it might be easier to picture what he is describing, but each person will picture it in his own way.  In other words, not only is Vonnegut calling attention to fictional writing, but he is calling attention to the real world, as well.  While there might be an objective reality, there is no way for any one to get more in touch with it than any one else.

Vonnegut's view, therefore, allows you, if you are so inclined, to question the narratives that you have come to believe as fact, since every narrative, be it history, or science, is someone else's subjective viewpoint on whatever it happens to be.  What Vonnegut is questioning is our we all seemed trapped in some sort of materialistic mindset where we are all programmed like robots to spend our whole lives desiring and working towards owning stuff--but the irony of it is, no matter how much stuff we have, we only continue to want more stuff.  There is no end to it.  We go to school, get jobs, go into debt, all just to have this stuff, which is never as fulfilling and wonderful as it seems like it will be before we get it.  We all go about our lives like characters in a story, with a beginning, middle, and end, and everything turns out alright--there is some sort of resolution in the end, if you live your life the right way.  And that is the danger of "realism" and writing that purports to be "real" or "nonfiction", because it gives people a false perception that reality is shaped by external forces.

But that isn't the case.  We each shape reality in our own subjective way, through the language that comes naturally to us, through experience.  This is what Vonnegut is getting in Breakfast of Champions at when he says,

"Once I understood what was making America such a dangerous, unhappy nation of people who had nothing to do with real life, I resolved to shun storytelling.  I would write about life.  Every person would be exactly as important as any other.  All facts would also be given equal weightiness.  Nothing would be left out.  Let others bring order to chaos.  I would bring chaos to order, instead, which I think I have done.

If all writers would do that, then perhaps citizens not in the literary trades will understand that there is no order in the world around us, that we must adapt ourselves to the requirements of chaos instead." (215).

And this is what I intend to do as a writer.  Maybe it will never bring me fame and fortune and everything, but I feel like it is the right thing to do.  This is how I choose my priorities.  While maybe their is no universal moral code, I do follow one of my own.  Maybe it's not religiously based, but I know when something feels right--because it feels right.  It is really just that simply.  It might not work universally, but, as a writer, it works for me.



Sunday, April 20, 2014

White Noise, Propaganda, and Complacency

Increasingly, the more I watch TV, the more I surf the net--as we used to say in the 90's (does anyone say that anymore?)--the more frustrated I get with our culture.  People, myself included, are so easily distracted by inane nonsense, but, I suppose, to a certain degree, we can't help it, because it is designed to distract us from what is going on right in front of our faces.  

I know I am probably a crazy person with tinfoil on my head rambling my crazy paranoid theories about the world, but I really don't think that I am that crazy or paranoid.  While it might not count for much anymore, I am highly educated.  I study language, ideas, and stories--how to analyze language, ideas, and stories, and while that might not get me a well-paying job, they are invaluable skills.  Especially in the everything goes, misinformation age.

These are skills that we all need to develop, to be able to discern  the genuine from the bullshit.  That's the real reason that college degrees have been turned into a commodity--why teachers and instructors are marginalized and paid unlivable wages.  

If people are really educated, then they will be able to see through the illusions.

Good ideas, facts, sound science, get lost in all the white noise that so easily distracts us.  We don't have telescreens, we have the Internet and television.  Instead of the "Two Minutes Hate", we have a nonstop, 24-hour barrage.  We are inundated with messages, most of which can be simplified to, "Look the other way."

It's time for people to wake up and stop following and start listening.  Stop looking the other way.  It's time to find what's real, which is mixed in with the noise that makes us so apathetic.  Stop being apathetic and start being conscientious.

As far as we know, without a doubt, we only have one life, and the only time you can take action is in the present.  Time doesn't stop, it doesn't slow down, and the more of it you waste, the less of it you have.  You can continue to go about your life, and pretend there is nothing wrong, or you can begin to face the truth.  What are you going to do?

Friday, April 18, 2014

Top Five Top Lists from the Interwebs

Lists are everywhere around the Internet these days.  From Buzzfeed to the Washington Post, it is hard to get through the day without reading some kind of ranking of something.  Who are the top ten celebrities with eating disorders, you wonder?  I am sure there is a list out there to fulfill your curiosity.  I don't know whether it's a cultural need to put random things in some sort of arbitrary order, or what, but I kind of hope it's a fad that will eventually die out--although, with the Internet, things never really die out for very long, just look at those quizzes that pop up every six months or so.  Anyways, I am certainly fascinated with this phenomenon, and I hear it helps bring in readers, so I have shamelessly decided to put together my own list, a list of lists--the list of lists, in fact:

Top Five Top Lists from the Interwebs

5. The Richest: "10 Things You Didn't Know About Disneyland"


I have never heard of this website, but I am guessing by the name that it is not for poor people?  I guess that makes sense, since you have to about be rich to afford to get into Disneyland or Disney World.  I have never been to either, but these sorts of lists always fascinate me, especially since most of the time, I know most of the facts that I am not supposed to know.  That's one thing that I do like about this list--I didn't know any of these "facts".  I don't exactly feel enlightened, though.  One thing I really hate about sites like this with lists: you have to watch out for the ads that have arrows in them to make it look like you are supposed to click on the arrows to keep following the list--you savvy bastards.


4. Answers.com: "22 Shocking Celebrities Who Used to Be Young & Hot"



As if the name of their website wasn't pretentious enough, these people actually have the gall to point out that people age!  Shocking, I know, right?  I guess this list blows my theory that all celebrities are actually robots.  Actually, they could still be robots.  They could get refitted every few years to keep up the illusion.  Either way, this is one of those lists where you click through the pictures on the same page, rather than having to follow like fifty links or having to scroll down the page--how annoying, right?



3. Mental Floss: "12 Directors Who Hated Their Own Movies"



Probably not the first list like this, probably not the last.  Probably picked randomly as the next list I came across.  Okay, so maybe this list is more like the first five lists I found.  Still, though, this list has a certain something that makes it stand out.  Oh wait, I follow Mental Floss on Facebook.  Yeah, that's probably it.



2. The Huffington Post: "Top 50 Successful Marijuana Users Who Prove the Person Matters More than the Plant"



It's no secret that the Huffington Post supports marijuana legalization, so it's no surprise that they would make a list about this issue.  I am sure it is not the only one, but, like many of the stoners who would read this, I am too lazy to actually commit to the amount of research it would take to actually prove this without a doubt.  This particular list shows how many hypocrites there are in politics, people that dictate what the rest of us should be doing, but have done the exact opposite themselves.  And, wait, hold up, Snoop Lion has smoked pot?  What?


1. Rolling Stone: "1994: The Top 40 Best Records From Mainstream Alternative's Best Year"



Rolling Stone is not one to shy away from making lists, but, maybe because I am a big music nerd, I don't usually mind their lists as much.  This is a actually good list, although I don't think the order necessarily matters.  Actually, it doesn't.  The order in none of these matter, because they don't matter, they are...  Distractions?  Yeah, that sounds about right.  I actually read this one through, though...  Oh wait, I mean, I read them all...  Or did I?  Did I really read them?  Is this list for real?  As real as any other list, I guess...  That's not a very solid answer, though.

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

We Are Our Own Barbarian Hoards

One of my biggest pet peeves about teaching is that I feel like the students think they know more than I do about the importance of being able to write and communicate ideas in a civil way.  How can I teach my students the importance of communicating as in a dialogue when it doesn't seem like anyone in the world is actually doing this?  It's no wonder than so many of my students are unreachable.  And I am not alone in this.  So many of my colleagues experience the same thing and feel the same way.

Glancing through forums, comments on articles, Youtube, etc, it seems like everyone is shouting out their opinions and no one is listening to each other.  Turn on the TV news and you get the same thing.  Why the Hell would you need to learn how to write an essay when people only pick what they want out of it, twist it, and start shouting how they feel about it instead of trying to create a dialogue?  It's no wonder our society, or even our civilization, is falling apart.  I look around, watch the news, look online, and it seems, more and more, like we are headed to a new dark age.  There is no such thing as common sense.  Or even sense.  Everyone is shouting and no one is listening.  One is ineffective without the other.

While I am probably overgeneralizing, as I am sure there are more people like me who are quietly watching everything unfold and are doing what little they can to make a difference--even though it is mostly not making a difference, or at least not any sort of noticeable difference fast enough to actually change anything--the fact is, society only works if there is some sort of social contract holding everyone is check, making sure that most people are following what they agree they should be doing, and that contract has been void for quite some time.  The only way to renew any sort of social contract is by having a dialogue, as a society, where all the disparate parts work together to communicate ideas, resolve differences, or at least agree to disagree, and figure out how to peaceably move forward in a way that mutually benefits everyone.  

But, looking around, seeing what I see, hearing what I hear, I don't feel like this is realistically possible as things are right now.  The only thing I see happening is chaos, like a cancer, stealing its way into every facet of society, sooner or later overtaking everyone and everything.  This is where we are headed.  Unlike the Roman Empire, we are not going to be invaded by barbarian hoards, we are our own barbarian hoards, and sooner or later, we are going to bring down our own Empire.