Showing posts with label musings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label musings. Show all posts

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Late for Work

I swerved through traffic my radio blasting Marilyn Manson as the person in the car I just ripped past gave me the finger.  I couldn't be late, not again.  My boss had made that clear.  If I was late again I would be out on the street without a job.

I pressed down on the accelerator when I came to a stretch of a clearing in the left lane.  Five more minutes down the highway and I would make it.  I could do it in three if I really pushed it.  Hopefully I wouldn't run into any cops, or get cut off by some shlub or anything.

Is the job really worth getting a speeding ticket or getting into an accident, though?  Surely I need a job, but at what cost?  What the hell was I even doing working there?  A couple generations ago, a person with an English degree probably would not have had to settle indefinitely for a job at a restaurant.  An education used to mean something back then -- even one in the humanities.  What happened?

I thought about it, and the more I did, subconsciously, the slower I went.  Before I realized it, I was holding up traffic.  The first opportunity I had I got over in the slow lane behind a semi.  If I was late, I would be late, whatever happened, I would let fate decide.

Sunday, January 8, 2012

The ride home

The Devotchka hit us, put us in the the right mood.  Back, back to the Ohio countryside.  Small bankrupt towns sprinkled out over dead winter farmland and wooded stretches half naked with the evergreen scruff like body hair amongst the barren deciduous trees.  I stare out the window as the scenery rolls by, but I see none of it.  I am lost in thoughts.  Plans for the future, collectively, my plan of action.  My life's goal.  It seems so close, but yet it is still beyond the class.  In order to get it I am going to have to get in and stare back at the where I am from and try to make sense of it all.  Then I will be free to improve upon it, in some small way.  It has worked for me so far, why change now.  The only change I have to make is within myself, but the mystery behind that change is the greatest mystery of all.  Life.