Watching http://youtu.be/uQWxtLUsRYM as I pour myself into something I have not really done in a long time: writing. I have forgotten what this feels like, but the sensory memory is still there. Anyways, this is why I love my profession, I may never make a lot of money, but I would rather be able to do this as often as possible.
Looking forward to school starting: this is my last week at my summer job! *does back flip*
Right now I am just working on some ideas and feelings I have been having, in story form, scene by scene. My goal is to be able to leave the final product as much as it is originally written as possible, and to just work on it when I have opportunities to do so. As a writer, I have been stuck in a rut, working and working and working on the same thing over and over again, and only getting marginally further than where I have been for six years.
Sometimes I will almost ruin a project before I finally get exasperated and want to give up, which is what is happening to my first novel, and I don't want that to keep happening, I just want to continue moving forward and working on my craft and applying what I learn as I am writing, and just try to get better with each project.
I am forcing myself to stick to one version of Out in the Garage, make minimal changes to it, and put it out, because, quite frankly, I have enough other things to worry about, I want to move on and begin writing a new rough draft, more or less in a stream of consciousness style, which I think will be very therapeutic when I am deep in the trenches of school and teaching and writing my thesis. Still, I do want to feel like Out in the Garage is actually finished when I publish it, so I am holding myself to reasonably high standards.
And, actually, what I said earlier isn't entire true, either, the changes I am making -- adding better descriptions and changing the text to the present tense (for the most part) -- aren't exactly minimal, they just aren't very complicated changes, they are building on what is already there and making it better. I am trying to just keep in mind all of the advice that I have gotten, but follow my gut instinct, which is usually how I am most successful as a writer.
That's how I feel justified in it, that, and I am going to do another proof no matter how many changes I make -- and I am going to still publish it on October 18, 2013, no matter what. My schedule is as such: finish the last rewrite by September 11, finish proofreading by October 11, and have a smooth release on the 18th.
I really, really hope the next book doesn't take six years. I am shooting for one year, but it will probably, realistically, be more like two, with the whole school and getting a job or going to get my PhD. thing, not to mention my marriage and family and friends and what not. Still, writing fiction and recording music / playing guitar are good releases when I am stressed out and have the time, and everybody needs that. I am assuming the thesis is going to be stressful, especially as it approaches April-May.
Anyways, enjoy some RHCP! Josh Klinghoffer impresses me -- it makes me want to see them in concert again, eventually.